Before I start, here are the rules: 1. List 8 facts...only 8. 2. You must then list 8 TAGS at the end of the post. This means you must name 8 people on Buzznet who now have to post the same type of blog (journal entry). 3. Leave them a note on their page asking them to read yours.
1.I guess this should be my first since I asked it of other people.I'm a seme girl I like being in control no ifs,ands,or buts!!
2.I love to run around in public singing songs such as The safarie song and Best Freinds(videos at bottom)
3.I'm super hyper and when I'm not hyper I'm can be a real bitch!
4.I can have up to 12 differnt flavors of lip gloss on my person at one time.
5.Only 12 cause I usally carry really small purses.
6.Though my page dosn't reflect it my room is pastel pink in green with flowers and candels and lacy curtains.
The term appears to have been first used by the alchemistParacelsus. He once claimed that he had created a false human being that he referred to as the homunculus. The creature was to have stood no more than 12 inches tall, and did the work usually associated with a golem. However, after a short time, the homunculus turned on its creator and ran away. The recipe consisted of a bag of bones, semen, skin fragments and hair from any animal, of which the chimeric homunculus would be a hybrid. This was to be laid in the ground surrounded by horse manure for forty days, at which point the embryo would form.
In Carl Jung's studies of Alchemy, he believed the first record of a homunculus in alchemical literature appeared in the Visions of Zosimos, written in the third century A.D, although the actual word "homunculus" was never used. In the visions, Zosimos mentions encountering a man who impales him with a sword, and then undergoes "unendurable torment," his eyes become blood, he spews forth his flesh, and changes into "the opposite of himself, into a mutilated anthroparion, and he tore his flesh with his own teeth, and sank into himself," which is a rather grotesque personification of the ouroboros, the dragon that bites its own tail, which represents the dyophysite nature in alchemy: the balance of two principles. Zosimos later encounters several other homunculi, named as the Brazen Man, the Leaden Man, and so forth. Commonly, the homunculi "submit themselves to unendurable torment" and undergo alchemic transformation. Zosimos made no mention of actually creating an artificial human, but rather used the concept of personifying inanimate metals to further explore alchemy.[1]
There are also variants cited by other alchemists. One such variant involved the use of the mandrake. Popular belief held that this plant grew where semen ejaculated by hanged men (during the last convulsive spasms before death) fell to the ground, and its roots vaguely resemble a human form to varying degrees. The root was to be picked before dawn on a Friday morning by a black dog, then washed and "fed" with milk and honey and, in some prescriptions, blood, whereupon it would fully develop into a miniature human which would guard and protect its owner. Yet a third method, cited by Dr. David Christianus at the University of Giessen during the 18th century, was to take an egg laid by a black hen, poke a tiny hole through the shell, replace a bean-sized portion of the white with human semen, seal the opening with virgin parchment, and bury the egg in dung on the first day of the March lunar cycle. A miniature humanoid would emerge from the egg after thirty days, which would help and protect its creator in return for a steady diet of lavender seeds and earthworms.
SasuNaru is short for 'Sasuke x Naruto' or in other words; Uchiha Sasuke and Uzumaki Naruto. If there is ever a canon yaoi pairing in Naruto, then it would most probably be SasuNaru. In fact, many people would even say that SasuNaru would be the most likely pairing in the whole series, if there ever is any. Although many other people may deny the two ever getting together, they still can't deny that Sasuke has feelings deeper than comradeship toward the oblivious blonde haired boy.
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In a Shonen Jump (the publishers of Naruto) interview with Kishimoto (the manga-ka of Naruto)---
Shonen Jump Question: Naruto and Sasuke kiss (accidentally) in the first chapter where they appear together. Does this add a special dimension to their rivalry?
Masashi Kishimoto Answer: I didn’t have any particular reason for it, other then to surprise readers. I mainly did it because I don’t think there has ever been a manga where two rivals kissed. Also, by having this encounter, it was easier to set up the love triangle: Sakura, who had intended to be the first one to kiss Sasuke, has it stolen by her rival Naruto, Sasuke and Naruto are rivals, so there’s and added tension there. And so on and so forth.
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If one would look closely to Kishimoto said, then he'll notice that he said that Naruto was Sakura's rival (in love?). Which means that Sakura somewhat sees Naruto as a threat in her quest for Sasuke's affection. Plus, he said that it was a love triangle. Obviously it would be that: Naruto likes Sakura; Sakura likes Sasuke; and Sasuke likes...Naruto? That would be the most obvious answer.
SasuNaru is the best pairing in Naruto! They are totally meant for each other!
I FOUND SOMETHING THAT FREAKS ME OUT ! OK AS A YAOI FAN GIRL I FEEL ALL FAN BASES SHOULD HAVE THE WRIGHT TO SOME .IF THEY ARE ACTULLY ANIME!THIS PAIRING I FOUND WHEN LOOKING FOR RANDOM ART ON DEVIANT .AND I NEARLLY FELL OUT OF MY CHAIR IN SHOCK !I MEAN COME ON NOT EVERY COUPLE IS WORKABLE NOT EVERY SHOW HAS POTINTAL!THIS SHOW ISN'T EXACTLLY BASED TOWARDS KIDS BUT IT DEFFINTALLY ISN'T YAOIABLE !!!!!!!!!!!HAVE YOU GUSSED WHAT SHOW IT IS YET ?IF FOR SOME GOD AWFUL REASON YOU LIKE THIS PARING THEN SHOOT ME BUT AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!ANYWAY HERE IT IS TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT! YES I'M SERIOUS!THEY CALL IT ZADR.THIS ONE OF THE LEAST YAOI IMAGES I HAVE FOUND OF THIS COUPLE.I LIKED THIS ART SO HERE IT IS OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AAAAAAAHHHHHHH I FOUND ANOTHER WEIRD PARING AND THIS IS A KIDS SHOW!WHAT ARE FANGIRLS COMING TO NOW I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO WATCH INVADERZIM OR DANNY PHANTOM WITH MY NEICE OR COUSINS OR ANYONE WITH OUT GOING ALL FANGIRL ANYWAY HERE IS ANOTHER PIC. AT THE CONCLUSIN OF THIS CAN WE REALLY NO WHEN TO DRAW THE LINE ANY WAY IF IT MAKES YOU FEEL BETTER HERE IS SOME KH YAOI! :)
Period: A kindergarten class had a homework assignment to find out about something exciting and relate it to the class the next day. When the time came to present what they'd found, the first little boy walked up to the front of the class made a small white dot on the blackboard and sat back down. Puzzled, the teacher asked him just what it was. "It's a period,'' said the little boy. "Well, I can see that,'' she said, ''but what is so exciting about a period?'' ''Damned if I know,'' said the little boy, ''but this morning my sister was missing one, Daddy had a heart attack, Mommy fainted, and the man next door shot himself."
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DONT LIE TO MOMMY: John invited his mother over for dinner. During the meal, his mother couldn't help noticing how beautiful John's roommate Julie was. She had long been suspicious of a relationship between John and his roommate, and this only made her more curious. Over the course of the evening, while watching the two interact, she started to wonder if there was more between John and the roommate than met the eye. Reading his mom's thoughts, John volunteered, "I know what you must be thinking, but I assure you, Julie and I are just roommates." About a week later, Julie came to John and said, "Ever since your mother came to dinner, I can't find the beautiful silver gravy ladle. You don't suppose she took it, do you?" John said, "Well, I doubt it, but I'll write her a letter just to be sure." So he sat down and wrote: "Dear Mother, I'm not saying you 'did' take a gravy ladle from my house, and I'm not saying you 'did not' take a gravy ladle. But the fact remains that one has been missing ever since you were here for dinner. Love, John" Several days later, John received a letter from his mother which read: "Dear Son, I'm not saying that you 'do' sleep with Julie, and I'm not saying that you 'do not' sleep with Julie. But the fact remains that if she were sleeping in her own bed, she would have found the gravy ladle by now. Love, Mom"
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VENTRILIQUIST: A young ventriloquist is touring the clubs and one night he's doing a show in a small town in Arkansas. With his dummy on his knee, he starts going through his usual dumb blonde jokes when a blonde woman in the 4th row stands on her chair and starts shouting: "I've heard enough of your stupid blonde jokes. What makes you think you can stereotype women that way? What does the color of a person's hair have to do with her worth as a human being? It's guys like you who keep women like me from being respected at work and in the community and from reaching our full potential as a person. Because you and your kind continue to perpetuate discrimination against not only blondes, but women in general and all in the name of humor!" The embarrassed ventriloquist begins to apologize, and the blonde yells, "You stay out of this, mister! I'm talking to that little shit on your knee."
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DRIVERS LISENCE: A Mom is driving her little girl to a friends house for a play date. Mommy, the little girl asks, how old are you? Honey, you are not supposed to ask a lady her age, the mother warns. It is not polite. Ok, the little girl says. How much do you weigh? Now really, the mother says, these are personal questions, and really none of your business. Undaunted, the little girl asks, Why did you and daddy get a divorce? That is enough questions, honestly! The exasperated mother walks away as the two friends begin to play. My Mom wouldnt tell me anything, the little girl says to her friend. Well, said the friend, all you need to do is look at her drivers license. It is like a report cardit has everything on it. Later that night, the little girl says to her mother, I know how old you are. You are 32. The mother is surprised and asks, How did you find that out? I also know that you weigh 140 pounds. The mother is past surprise and shocked now. How in heavens name did you find that out? And, the little girl says triumphantly, I know why you and daddy got a divorce. Oh really? the mother asks. And whys that? Because you got an F in sex.
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A VIRGINS NIGHTMARE: A girl asks her boyfriend to come over Friday night and have dinner with her parents. Since this is such a big event, the girl announces to her boyfriend that after dinner, she would like to go out and make love for the first time. * * * * * * * * * Well, the boy is ecstatic, but he has never had sex before, so he takes a trip to the pharmacist to get some condoms. He tells the pharmacist it's his first time and the pharmacist helps the boy for about an hour. He tells the boy everything there is to know about condoms and sex. * * * * * * * * * At the register, the pharmacist asks the boy how many condoms he'd like to buy, a 3-pack, 10-pack, or family pack. The boy insists on the family pack because he thinks he will be rather busy, it being his first time and all. * * * * * * * * * That night, the boy shows up at the girl's parents house and meets his girlfriend at the door. "Oh, I'm so excited for you to meet my parents, come on in!" * * * * * * * * * The boy goes inside and is taken to the dinner table where the girl's parents are seated. The boy quickly offers to say grace and bows his head. * * * * * * * * * A minute passes, and the boy is still deep in prayer, with his head down. * * * * * * * * * 10 minutes pass, and still no movement from the boy. * * * * * * * * * Finally, after 20 minutes with his head down, the girlfriend leans over and whispers to the boyfriend, "I had no idea you were this religious." * * * * * * * * The boy turns, and whispers back, "I had no idea your father was a pharmacist."
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Stupid People Stories: How do these people survive? ONE Recently, when I went to McDonald's I saw on the menu that you could have an order of 6, 9 or 12 Chicken McNuggets. I asked for a half dozen nuggets. "We don't have half dozen nuggets," said the teenager at the counter. "You don't?" I replied. "We only have six, nine, or twelve," was the reply. "So I can't order a half dozen nuggets, but I can order six?" "That's right." So I shook my head and ordered six McNuggets TWO I was checking out at the local Wal-Mart with just a few items and the lady behind me put her things on the belt close to mine. I picked up one of those "dividers" that they keep by the cash register and placed it between our things! so they wouldn't get mixed. After the girl had scanned all of my items, she picked up the "divider," looking it all over for the bar code so she could scan it. Not finding the bar code she said to me, "Do you know how much this is?" I said to her "I've changed my mind, I don't think I'll buy that today." She said "OK," and I paid her for the things and left. She had no clue to what had just happened. THREE A lady at work was seen putting a credit card into her floppy drive and pulling it out very quickly. When I inquired as to what she was doing, she said she was shopping on the Internet and they kept asking for a credit card number, so she was using the ATM "thingy." FOUR I recently saw a distraught young lady weeping beside her car. "Do you need some help?" I asked. She re plied, "I knew I should have replaced the battery to this remote door unlocker. Now I can't get into my car. Do you think they (pointing to a distant convenience store) would have a battery to fit this?" "Hmmm, I dunno. Do you have an alarm, too?" I asked. ! "No, just this remote thingy," she answered, handing it and the car keys to me. As I took the key and manually unlocked the door, I replied, "Why don't you drive over there and check about the batteries. It's a long walk." FIVE Several years ago, we had an Intern who was none too swift One day she was typing and turned to a secretary and said, "I'm almost out of typing paper. What do I do?" "Just use copier machine paper," the secretary told her. With that, the intern took her last remaining blank piece of paper, put it on the photocopier and proceeded to make five "blank" copies. SIX I was in a car dealership a while ago, when a large motor home was towed into the garage. The front of the vehicle was in dire need of repair and the whole thing generally looked like an extra in "Twister." I asked the manager what had happened. He told me that the driver had set the "cruise control" and then went in the back to make a sandwich. SEVEN My neighbor works in the operations department in the central office of a large bank. Employees in the field call him when they have problems with their computers. One night he got a call from a woman in one of the branch banks who had this question: "I've got smoke coming from the back of my terminal. Do you guys have a fire downtown?" EIGHT Police in Radnor, PA, interrogated a suspect by placing a metal colander on his head and connecting it with wires to a photocopy machine. The message "He's lying" was placed in the copier, and police pressed the copy button each time they thought the suspect wasn't telling the truth. Believing the "lie detector" was working, the suspect confessed. NINE A mother calls 911 very worried asking the dispatcher if she needs to take her kid to the emergency room, the kid was eating ants. The dispatcher tells her to give the kid some Benadryl and should be fine, the mother says, I just gave him some ant killer..... Dispatcher: Rush him in to emergency Life is tough. Gotta love them,,,,,,, It's tougher if you're stupid!"
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UR MOM: Two men are sitting at a bar. One says to the other, "Dude, I totally slept with your mom!" The other guy tries to calm him down and get him to shut up but he keeps saying, "I sooo slept with your mom!" Until the other guy says, "You're completely wasted, Dad, I'm driving you home."
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MENTAL: Jim and Edna were both patients in a mental hospital. One day while they were walking past the hospital swimming pool, Jim suddenly jumped into the deep end. He sank to the bottom of the pool and stayed there. Edna promptly jumped in to save him. She swam to the bottom and pulled Jim out. When the hospital director became aware of Edna's heroic act she immediately ordered that Edna be discharged from the hospital because she now considered Edna to be mentally stable. The director went to Edna and said, "I have some good news and some bad news. The good news is that you being discharged because you responded so rationally to a crisis by jumping into the pool to save the life of another person. Your action displays sound mindedness. The bad news is that Jim, the patient you saved, hung himself in the bathroom with his bathrobe right after you saved him. I am so sorry, but he's dead." Edna replied, "He didn't hang himself, I put him there to dry. How soon can I go home?"
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GAY: Four guy friends reunited at a party after 30 years. After a few laughs and drinks, one of them had to go to the rest room. The ones who stayed behind began to talk about their kids and their successes. The first guy says: I am very proud of my son, he is my pride and joy. He started working at a very successful company at the bottom of the barrel. He studied Economics and Business Administration soon he was promoted and began to climb the corporate ladder becoming the General Manager and now he is the president of the company. He became so rich that he gave his best friend a top of the line Mercedes Benz for his birthday. The second guy says: Damn, that's terrific!! My son is also my pride and joy, I am very proud of him. He started working at a traveling agency for a very big airline. He went to flight school to become a pilot and also manage to become a partner in the company where he now owns the majority of the assets. He became so rich that he gave his best friend a brand new jet for his birthday. The third guy says: Well, well, well congratulations!! My son is also my pride and joy and he is also very rich. He studied in the best universities and became an Engineer. He started his own construction company and became very successful and a multimillionaire. He also gave away some thing very nice and expensive to his best friend for his birthday. He built a 30,000 sq ft mansion specially for his friend. The three friends congratulated each other mutually for the successes of theirs sons. The forth friend who earlier had gone to restroom returned and asked: What's going on, what are all the congratulations for? One of the three said: We were talking about the pride we feel for the successes of our sons. And then he asked, What about your son? The forth man replied: My son is Gay and he makes a living dancing as a stripper at a nightclub. The three friends said: What a shame that must be, that is horrible, what a disappointment you must feel. The forth man replied: No, I am not ashamed. Not at all. He is my son and I love him just as well, he is my pride and joy. And he is very lucky too. Did you know that his birthday just passed and the other day he received a beautiful 30,000 sq ft mansion, a brand new jet and a top of the line Mercedes Benz from his three boyfriends.
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HAHA: A woman suspects her husband is cheating on her. One day she calls home and a strange woman answers. Wife: Who is this? Maid: This is the maid. Wife: We don't have a maid. Maid: Um, I was hired this morning by the man of the house. Wife: Well, this is his wife. Is he there? Maid: He's upstairs in the bedroom with someone who I assumed was his wife. The wife is fuming. Wife: "Listen, would you like to make $50,000? Maid: Of course! What will I have to do? Wife: I want you to take my gun from the desk and shoot him and the woman he's with. The maid puts the phone down. The wife hears footsteps, then gunshots, then more footsteps. Maid: What do I do with the bodies? Wife: Just drag them out and throw them in the swimming pool. Maid: There's no pool here. A long pause....... Wife: Is this 832-4821?
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PIG: The mind of a 6-year old is wonderful. First grade...true story: One day the first grade teacher was reading the story of the 'Three Little Pigs' to her class. She came to the part of the story where the first pig was trying to accumulate the building materials for his home. She read, " ... and so the pig went up to the man with the wheelbarrow full of straw and said, 'Pardon me sir, but may I have some of that straw to build my house?'..." The teacher paused then asked the class, "And what do you think that man said?" One little boy raised his hand and said, "I think he said...'Holy cow! A talking pig!'" The teacher was unable to teach for the next 10 minutes.
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GOVERNMENT: Lil' Johnny goes to his dad and asks, "What is politics?" Dad says, "Well son, let me try to explain it this way. I'm the breadwinner of the family, so let's call me Capitalism. Mommy is the administrator of the money, so we'll call her the Government. We're here to take care of your needs, so we'll call you The People. The nanny, well, consider her The Working Class. Your baby brother, we'll call him The Future. Now go think about this and see if it makes sense." So the little boy goes off to bed thinking about what Dad has said. Later that night, he hears his baby brother crying and runs to his room only to find that his diapers are very soiled. So the little boy goes to his parents' room. Mom is sound asleep. Not wanting to wake her, he goes to the nanny's room. Finding the door locked, he looks through the peephole and sees his father in bed with the nanny. He gives up and goes back to bed. The next morning, the little boy says to his father, "Dad, I think I understand what politics is now." "Good son, tell me in your own words then what politics are." The little boy replies, "Well, while Capitalism is screwing the Working Class, the Government is sound asleep, the People are being ignored and the Future is in deep shit."
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WILD RIDE: One upon a time a funny blonde decided to try horse riding even though she had never tried it before. She got on the horse and began riding at a slow pace. Eventually the horse got faster and faster until the blonde wasn't able to hold on. All of a sudden she felt herself slipping from the saddle. In desperation the blonde decided to jump and try to save herself. So she jumped, but her foot got caught in the saddle stirrup and she was helplessly pulled behind the horse with her head banging on the ground. The blonde was near unconscious when she was rescued by Fred the Wal-Mart greeter, who unplugged the horse.
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MAKE SURE YOU USE THE RIGHT EMAIL: A Minneapolis couple decided to go to Florida to thaw out during a particularly icy winter. They planned to stay at the same hotel where they spent their honeymoon 20 years earlier. Because of hectic schedules, it was difficult to coordinate their travel plans. So, the husband left Minneapolis and flew to Florida on Thursday, with his wife flying down the following day. The husband checked into the hotel. There was a computer in his room, so he decided to send an email to his wife. However, he accidentally left out one letter in her email address, and without realizing his error, sent the email.Meanwhile, somewhere in Houston, a widow had just returned home from her husband's funeral. He was a minister who was called home to glory following a heart attack. The widow decided to check her email expecting messages from relatives and friends. After reading the first message, she screamed and fainted. The widow's son rushed into the room, found his mother on the floor, and saw the computer screen which read: To: My loving wife Subject: I've arrived Date: April 6, 2006 I know you're surprised to hear from me. They have computers here now and you are allowed to send emails to your loved ones. I've just arrived and have been checked in. I see that everything has been prepared for your arrival tomorrow. Looking forward to seeing you then. Hope your journey is as uneventful as mine was. P.S. sure is freaking hot down here!!!!!
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I was expecting yelling. I was expecting at least a disappointed lecture. I wasn't expecting him to reach up and pull the zipper of my hoodie down and take it off my shoulders. Almost before it hit the floor my shirt was following it and I shivered from the water dripping from my hair to my shoulders. He lowered his mouth to the water droplets there and kissed them away, his fingers pulling at my belt to get my pants off. As soon as they were off, he pushed me down onto the bed and left the room. What the . . .
He came back in a moment later with a fluffy white towel in hand. I smiled a bit at him and wasn't surprised now to see him smile back. He sat on the edge of his bed and motioned me closer. When I moved he gave me a slightly exasperated glance and pulled me down so that my head was resting on his lap. His hands brought the towel to my head and he rubbed it across it. When he was sure it was dry enough to satisfy him, he stopped and bent his head to kiss my lips. I kissed back, moving to sit up and lean into the kiss which was fast becoming heated and passionate. His tongue grazed mine and the first sound since I'd been there was uttered. We both mooaned.
He shifted so that I fell to the mattress and he was over top of me. His clothes came off as fast as he'd stripped mine and we were pressed together, flesh to flesh except the very thin layers that were our boxers. I pulled away from his mouth and turned us over so that I was straddling his waist. I saw the pleasure in his eyes since he'd always been the one to initiate our contact. He dragged my head back down to his so that our lips connected and I ground my hips against his, feeling him get hard causing an immediate response from me.
You only hold me up like this 'Cause you don't know who I really am I used to waste my time on Waste my time on Waste my time dreaming of being alive (now I only waste it dreaming of you)
He eased me away from him and pushed my boxers down off my hip. I gasped at the cool air hitting my flesh but the gasp turned into a groan of pleasure when his lips wrapped around me. I was about to protest when I saw him reach for his night stand, his mouth and tongue working over the tip of me. I stopped his hand and reached into the drawer, somehow knowing what he was looking for. When I handed him the bottle it was with a sigh and a gasp because his mouth had slid down me farther and he'd pushed my legs apart farther so that he was kneeling between them sort off. I heard the bottle open and his mouth left me for a moment, causing me to whimper. I watched him coat a finger and raised an eyebrow. Only one fin- ooh. I threaded my fingers through his hair, mooaning because not only had he dropped his mouth down on me again but as soon as he had he'd slowly pushed that one finger into me. It was uncomfortable but his mouth moving over me was fast making that uncomfortableness go away. Or at least make me forget about it.
Before I could come I pushed him back. He frowned but gave a groan when I brought my hand down to stroke him. After a moment he was in me and although he hadn't really done anything to take the pain away, I found myself moving on him impatiently after only a few seconds. He brought his mouth to mine to swallow the cries and louder mooans coming from his both, his hands gripping my hips as he moved. Every few thrusts he went a little harder and I felt myself tearing, my eyes starting to sting from the increasing pain. He felt the tear roll down my face and stopped to kiss them away, apologizing. When he stopped moving, I felt an absence and whimpered. Even though it hurt, I wanted it so bad. He slowed down, got more gentle and before I realized it we were both coming.
Turn off the lights and turn off the shyness 'Cause all our moves make up for the silence And oh, the way your makeup stains my pillowcase Like I'll never be the same [oh, oh, oh, oh, oh]
We cleaned up almost hurriedly before slumping to the mattress, his arms winding around me, "I'm sorry. It's stupid to think you wouldn't be mad and jealous. Just . . .cool it a bit okay? So that she doesn't start to get suspicious?"
I sighed and turned a bit, wincing and earning another apology from him before I could tell him it was okay. I kissed his neck and wrapped my arms around his waist, "It's fine, Alex. I understand. Besides,"I laughed, "I'm a little glad you did now."
He snorted with laughter and rained kisses on my face before snuggling me closer. The conversation switched to something else and I felt my eyelids droop. I didn't plan on staying the night there, but sometimes the best made plans get pushed to the side in the euphoric afterglow of knowing that you'd just been with the person who has claimed your heart.
I've got headaches and bad luck but they couldn't touch you, no whoa I've got headaches and bad luck but they couldn't touch you, no whoa I'm not trying You only hold me up like this Turn off the lights and turn off the shyness 'Cause all of our moves make up for the silence And oh, the way your makeup stains Like I'll never be the same
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This is only part of the chapter before my last post!
The best laid plans of mice and men . . .okay so I'm not quoting my English paper here, I'm trying to say that yes I fell asleep with Alex. And only woke up when Darryl practically beat the door down. Alex snapped at him to come in and reached over the side of the bed to grab our boxers. We slid them on and watched as Darryl collapsed onto the floor in front of us, "You two are hard as hell to wake up. Toni's here."
I turned to Alex with wide eyes, suddenly completely terrified of my own best friend. I've seen her take fits and temper tantrums. They aren't pretty and they hurt. I've had enough bruises without having ever done anything at all, let along something like hooking up with her boyfriend.
"Guys relax." Alex shook his head, "It's cool. Jakey just spent the night because we were working on math and fell asleep. When we woke up it was way too late for him to go home so he just slept over. He's going to borrow my clothes and make up and it's going to be fine." He tugged me over for a long kiss before he went to the door to holler for Toni to come up.
Alex tossed me some clothes and I pulled them on while we waited for her to get upstairs. She actually didn't seem surprised to see me sitting on Alex's bed, slipping my shoes on and just hugged me. I cringed over her head at Alex, who shook his head, and hugged her back.
We finished getting ready but decided none of us wanted to go to school. Toni suggested we go to get coffee and then roam the mall for a few since it'd be virtually empty. I wanted to refuse and just head home but that would make me seem like a jerk on top of everything else. So I tagged along and had to put up with the "precious" cuddling and kisses. Alex met my eyes a few times in sympathy and tried to keep it to a minimum, even if it did tick Toni off a few times when he pulled away.
Now I see the truth in your eyes♦ This time it will last forever♦ Now I see the truth in your eyes♦ Tell me what you're looking for
After we were at the mall for a while, and had been into several stores, Alex pulled me into the bathroom. He pecked my neck and my mouth before backing up a bit, "I want to give you something."
I frowned at him. He took something out of his pocket and tied it around my wrist. Looking down I saw it was one of those quater-machine twine bracelets that the beads spelled out something. I twisted it until I could read it and smiled. M.I.N.E. When you turned the beads each one had a heart on the bottom of it. I tugged him toward me and kissed his lips, "How cute."
He smiled and hugged me tightly, "I know this hurts. I'm trying to get up the nerve to tell her."
I kissed his forehead, "I know. I'm not rushing you, I just hate lying to her and hurting her like we are. She's my best friend other than you, Alex, and I'm stabbing her in the back."
"I know. I'm a horrible person for asking it of you. But I'm going to put a stop to it. Just give me a while longer." He tapped the bracelet on my arm, "And don't forget that."
"I couldn't if I tried." I gave him a small smile and he pushed his lips to mine for a long moment before exiting the bathroom.
When I came out a moment later, Toni jumped on my back, "Jakey-face! Guh, you're such a girl. Gimme a lift?"
I laughed, "You call me a girl and in the next breath ask me to carry you?"
She nodded, knowing I could feel it on my shoulder.
I shook my head and hitched her up on my back, "Sure. Where to now?"
"FOOD!" She exclaimed and I winced, turning slightly to Alex.
He gave me a slight smile, looking a little left out, "Um . . . it doesn't matter. Let's just go to the food court."
"Yay!" Toni giggled and I threw him a small smile. It was cool to try to make Toni happy even if it did seem slightly hypocritical of us both.
Maybe I'm focusing too much on that and not enough on the fact that Alex likes me not her. Yeah . . .
To fall asleep with you would be heaven ♦ for once this dream wont be short lived♦ Take me with you ♦ show me all lifes splendors♦ I've been waiting for life's last breath♦ I've been waiting for life's last breath
"I want to go there!" Toni pointed toward where she wanted.
I made a face and slid her down off my back, "Not me. I'm going to Panda Express."
"Same here." Alex nodded, "Why don't you tell me what you want, Jake and I'll get it while you go find us a seat since Toni just has to eat in the most crowded place in the whole food court?"
She stuck her tongue out at us both when we laughed and flipped us off. Alex waited until she was out of earshot before rolling his eyes and muttering, "No thanks. That's Jake's job. Anyway, Jake, what do you want to eat?"
I told him and hoped that he got back in time for me to ask the question on my mind. He did and when I asked him if what Toni told me the first day of school was true, he nodded slowly and fiddled with the rice on his plate. He finally said softly, "I was actually curious and had hoped maybe I could just be bi, you know? Then it'd be okay. But I didn't enjoy it and . . ." His face turned red and I got the picture.
I squeezed his hand and shook my head, "It's cool. But you know she's going to ask that, right?"
A nod was my answer and he squeezed my hand back before letting go. Just in time too because I turned my head to see Toni coming toward us. Her head was bent, focusing on stuffing money back into her pocket. That's when it hit me that I needed to pay Alex for the food. When I tried to he refused with a slight smile.
The world wouldn't turn without you ♦ breathing it's air, I'd take you anywhere♦ For once this is one of those dreams that I can spare ♦but you'd rather spare me
Later, we dropped Toni off, knowing she'd be over in a few hours if she didn't get in trouble for skipping. We headed toward my house and I remembered that I'd have to crawl through my window to get my bedroom door unlocked. Alex volunteered to do it for me and I took the stairs after helping him climb into the window. By the time I got up there, he and my brother were talking while sitting on the edge of the bed.
Eric shook his head at me, "You owe me big time, man. I covered for your ass this morning. Anyway, if Mom asks, you left early to get a history project done with Alex and Toni. You didn't even go to school did you?"
I shook my head, giving him a sheepish grin and thanking him.
He patted me on the shoulder and murmured in my ear as he passed me, "Just don't let Toni know what you're doing, she will have your ass on a silver platter, man."
I eyed the floor and mouthed an "I know." before turning to the bed and plopping down on it. Alex brought his head to my stomach and I threaded my fingers through his hair, my other hand reaching to turn on my cd player. This was something I liked about being with Alex. There didn't always have to be words or heavy making out or anything. We were both content to just lay there and enjoy each other. He turned so that his face was in my stomach and I played with his hair watching his eyelids flutter. It'd been cute if he fell asleep on me cause he was rarely the one to cuddle up to me.
He didn't though. After a few moments, he reached for the cd player remote and turned it down a bit before speaking, almost directly into my shirt, "You know why I didn't want you to pay me back right?"
I shook my head and finally realized he couldn't see me before answering, "Nope. Not a clue."
"Because . . . as weird as this sounds, I felt like I was treating you like it was date. An extremely false first date, but one none the less. Which I will make up to you without Toni there at a later date, but . . . you get the picture right?" His face was tinging red slowly, his fingers curling into my skin.
I smiled and nodded, a laugh on my lips. Sure, I got the picture. He was treating me like he would a real boyfriend, however sneaky he'd had to be about it. I sat up a little and he pouted but I was only doing it so I could kiss on him for a few minutes. Finally, he pulled back, "Friday."
Today was Tuesday . . . what was he smoking?
He saw the confusion on my face, "I'm telling Toni Friday."
"Oh." I looked down at him, "Are you sure?"
He nodded, "As exciting as sneaking around is proving to be, I don't like it. I don't like the way it's tearing you two apart. So I'm telling her Friday. I'd do it right this second but the truth is, I'm terrified."
Okay, it might seem stupid for two boys to be scared of one little pipsqueak of a girl but you have to understand, it's not just that. Being gay in small towns is bad. Being gay in big towns is almost as bad because of gangs. Either way, being gay isn't easy. He's had a lot more trouble with it than I have already and pissing Toni off can potentially mean horrible things for both of us. No, Toni's not usually the type of girl to hurt someone purposely but if provoked no doubt in my mind she could be. Her best friend and her boyfriend, both males, going behind her back together would be just provocation don't you think?
Now I see the truth in your eyes ♦This time it will be forever ♦I'll trust you, if you'll just trust me ♦Tell me what youre looking for ♦Now I see the truth in your eyes ♦This time it will be forever ♦I'll trust you if you'll just trust me ♦If this isn't what you wanted, ♦then tell me what is ♦And our roles have been filled, ♦as they should with hidden messages in secret songs ♦This is my last breath of air.
I pushed his hair back a bit, smiling when it immediately came back into his eyes, "You don't have to. I can deal with it for longer if I have to. I'm just happy it's me you want."
He sighed, "Yeah, but it's not fair to either of you. Listen, I'm gonna go before she gets here."
And leave me here to talk to her alone? With a secret? Yeah that won't work. "No, don't."
"Jakey, I have to. I can't be around you both all the time. Not only do I feel like I'm butting in on your friendship sometimes but others I feel like you're really uncomfortable. I don't want you to be. Just . . . I'll be back after she leaves, I promise. I'm going for a ride." He sat up fully now and reached for his shoes.
I sighed, "Okay. I'll see you later then."
He nodded and reached for his hoodie.
I grabbed the sleeve and pulled him until he was directly in front of me again. I tugged again and he leaned in so that I could cover his lips with my own. He moaned against them but pulled back with small peck and a good bye.
He hadn't been gone anymore than a few moments when Toni arrived. She stared at me for a moment before slumping down on the edge of my bed, "Jake?"
I arched an eyebrow in curiosity. She hardly ever called me just Jake. She looked at me seriously for a moment before asking, "Do you think Alex loves me?"
And I'm suppose to answer this honestly? Yeah . . .right.
I gave a small shrug, "I don't know, Toni. I think it's too soon to think about that."
She looked at me squarely, "I don't think he does. He loves someone, you know because he has that glow about him but it's not me. I don't think he even really likes me. I'd just like to know who."
She's entirely too perceptive. Again, with the shrugging, "Beats me, Ton."
"If you knew, you'd tell me?" Her eyes met mine and I had to force myself to look her in the eye and lie to her. Hardest thing I ever had to do.
"Sure I would." yeah . . .and pigs flippin' fly.
Why did you go, I don't wanna be alone ♦Take me with you ♦Take me with you ♦Take me with you ♦I wanna be with you ♦Take me with you
Toni left a few hours later and told me to tell Alex to call her if he came back. I told her I would knowing that he wouldn't do it and laid back on my bed. It was a few hours later, almost midnight, when I heard a tapping at my window.
Cliche as hell, Alex. I peered out the window non the less to see him sitting on the ground right outside it. He waved for me to come out and I nodded, before pulling on some more clothes since I'd been in bed already. I locked my door and grabbed my backpack just in case. I scooted out the window and didn't get a chance to drop completely to the ground. He wrapped his arms around me from behind and clung to me, "Hey."
I turned to him, wrapping my arms around his neck, "Hey yourself. What are you doing here?"
"Come with me." He murmured against my lips and tugged at my hand.
Anything for you. "Okay." I threaded our fingers together and fell into step beside of him.
We walked in a comfortable silence, the one's I loved to observe, for a bit. It occurred to me that he had to sneak out to do whatever we were doing because he wasn't driving us. He tugged me closer after a moment and kissed my forehead, "I'm sorry about leaving you earlier."
I sighed, "You should be. I think Toni realizes something's up."
He paused and looked at me, "Why do you say that?"
I explained the conversation from earlier and he dead stopped and drew me close to him in a tight hug, "I'm sorry you had to deal with that. I hope I make up for it."
Gee, what a way to raise my curiosity up a notch. He just smiled at me, his lip rings flashing quickly which gave me the odd thought of how it was we made out so heavy and didn't get our lip rings caught? Random thought which was interrupted by him tugging on my hand to take me into the park. Okay, it would be slightly annoying if he dragged me out of bed to go to the park and sit on a bench.
I'll never miss it, the way you regret ♦And everything means everyone ♦There's something this far ♦That I had it all ♦You were the first one ♦To tell me I'm wrong ♦I'll never miss it, the way you regret ♦ And everything means everyone ♦ There's something I want
Luckily for him, he was smarter than that. He stopped me and plucked a piece of cloth from his pocket. He tied it quickly around my head and took both my hands in his, instructing me on when to walk and when to sit down. As soon as I did, his arms wrapped around me from behind and he murmured lightly in my ear, "Take it off."
I peeled off the blindfold and smiled. A cd player, some candles and a few blankets set on the table. He kissed my neck, "I thought this would be a better first date."
I leaned back against him, "You thought right."
He set the candles on the benches and spread us a blanket out on the tabletop. After helping me up there, we huddled together under the other blanket, watching the stars for a few. Alex's lips kept moving against my neck and cheeks and I couldn't stop smiling. He noticed, I knew, because his smile kept getting bigger and finally he dropped his mouth to mine, leaning me back in his arms to do so. At that moment I knew . . .
No matter who "had" him now this is where I belonged.
In my eyes life is education,imagination,munipulation,sin. Sin for yourself for the ones you love for the ones you do not.We all find ourselves in these pieces of life even when avioded these elements effect our lives at every momment.Find,recognize, and accept them.Education at school at home on TV threw friends write here on this site.Imagination of what life can be guessing what will happen in a book or movie and in our little computer world(or big)especalliy in fanfics.Munipulation threw school,parents,friends,lovers,and the media.So the first two positive the last two pain together we get our lives how ever pathetic or exciting so if you make them work for you ALL OF THEM you can be an even better person better than you thought you could ever be so will you work with them or make them cause you to strugle even harder chose! OR
I think thats a really kick ass thing to say cause so many people like the person that sayed that get beat up and made fun of and pushed around and when you say something like that it really stopes people in their tracks cause you can't really have a come back for that so any for any emo,bi,gay,androgenes what ever guy this is for you!
Blood drinched photograph hanging on the wall I try and close my eyes and pretend you don't execits at all you pulled the blood right from my vains you've torn apart my soul the only thing you left behind is an empty hollow hole I'm crying in the hallway I'm weeping by the stairs I can't beleive you left me, not this way,didn't know a human being could possibly feel this much pain in side my bleeding heart is the empresion that you left with your hating words and on my face the mark left by your fist I thought that I ounce loved you I thought that you ounce cared but now I only see you walking out on me with not much as a goodby but it's not like I expected one we didn't start with a hello we started with oh fuck I'm sorry let get that for you cause you ran straite into to me you where already slering but that seemed to turn me on now I just want your voice gone its wringing in my head it's drowning out my tears so leave me I never wanted you here
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Who else is grossed out yet oh wait it gets better!!! OK?!?! That was ...um..interesting I saved the strangest and grosses for last. READY!? Sure?! OK!!!!!!!!!!!! If you are not barffing cry our at least hopeing this girls will go to sex therapy you are just as sick!
These are just a few strange and distubing secrets I found on this live journal site called TH cult! Please leave comment on what yoy think of these!!!!!!!!!
A month from now I'm going to a MCR concert I'm really excited.I got the tickets for my Birthday,and a bunch of my freinds are going to.We are all going to try to meet up before the show so we can sit together.I can't wait.I got the tickets the day they came out wich was a MONTH ago.Just a little while longer!
Me and my friends talk about random stuff alot.The other day me and my friends were discussing what the world would be like if people could not speak.We all agreed that our world would be much different.How do you think that you would communicate with people and how would world be differnt?
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